Wednesday, 6 February 2013

Back To Work Blues


 (My new bits and bobs to take to work, I certainly wont forget Thomas will I)

Well that's is my maternity leave is over and tomorrow I go back to work, I can't believe how fast those 10 months have gone I feel like all I have done is blinked and boom 10 months have passed. I lay in bed last night just thinking about the past 10 months, that first month before Thomas arrived the waiting game I played each day wondering if I would start with any labour pains trying to keep myself busy tiding the house everyday or reading books making the most of my time before the little whirlwind came along. One week I read the whole Shopaholic series by Sophie Kinsella which is about 6 books if I remember rightly. Oh how times have changed its taken me a month to get less than half way through my current book.

I was also thinking about those early weeks after Thomas was born when he started to teach me how to be a mum,  the night feeds and how precious they actually were, when it felt like Thomas and I were the only people awake in the world. The early, early mornings when Thomas use to wake up at around 4 - 4:30 and wouldn't want to go back sleep so we had to go downstairs and eventually he would fall asleep in his swing chair so I could nap, Oh how I love that chair I wish it still had the same effect on him now.

Thomas has grown and changed so, so much he's gone from being a baby although I don't think we actually had a proper little baby in to a little boy. I am so proud to be his mummy and he makes me proud every single day and I know he always will do. I just hope that I don't miss any of his firsts whilst he's at nursery. That scares me so much.

Even though some times I feel like I've needed a break and some "me" time I am thoroughly thankful for every single second I get to spend with Thomas I do have some regrets though for the last half of my maternity leave since David started driving and we didn't have the car anymore Thomas and I couldn't really get out much as getting a bus is a pain I don't do it unless I really have to but it also means I haven't been able to visit friends who are also on maternity leave as much as I would have liked. When I go back to work though David will be getting a scooter so I will have the car on my days off so hopefully Thomas and I can do some fun things I also want to start going swimming with him when I can fit back in my costume.

I'm trying to be positive about going back to work, well it's a waste of time being negative about it because I don't really have any choice in the matter so I might as well get on with it. Thankfully I am able to work part time and it will be a nice balance I will spend 3 days at work and get adult conversation and have a bit of a break but I am also spending more time with Thomas than I am at work. I think once I get in to the swing of things it will be nice by the end of tomorrow it will probably feel like I've never been away. It just feels so weird after 10 months of not working spending all day with Thomas its done and I'm back at work anybody else found that?

4 comments:

  1. Good luck with your first day back! I was dreading my first day back and leaving my little boy but we soon got into a little routine and now I'm actually happy going to work. I never thought I'd even say that last bit!
    Lovely that you are part-time too I imagine that to be the best of both worlds, I have to work full-time at the moment but even that isn't as bad as I thought and sometimes I actually like it ;)

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  2. I hope your first day back went well! I don't go back until May but I am already nervous about it. You have such a great attitude about it though! x

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  3. I hope work has gone ok for you!!

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  4. I can relate to this post. I originally went back part time (3 days a week like you) and I found it was a good mix. I didn't really enjoy my job though so in that respect I was a bit miserable but at least I had a day "off" (although we all know its not really a day off with kid/s).

    I know what you mean about not getting a chance to read anymore!!! It does get easier as they get older though. And OH I MISS those night time feeds. I don't think I'm having any more kids and while the lack of sleep is not great (I need lots of sleep) it is so precious those moments when its just you and then am them focusing on feeding and just how much they need you! (welling up thinking of it! lol - clucky much?)

    Ah we had a swing chair too. It was AMAZING. I kept it after the first one and it came out again after the 2nd. Absolute godsend!

    They grow so quickly don't they? My first is off to school in September. I can't believe it!!!

    I hope you have enjoyed your first... month at work - I'm a bit behind on my blog reading! Look forward to catching up on your blog!

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